to my future self, a part of growing up
hey em! it’s you writing to you from your shitty college apartment, sitting on the couch drinking your tea because you’re too much of a puss to drink coffee considering you get really shaky and think you’re dying. you should stop being so dramatic! anyways, here’s some words that i want you to know and remember because you’re going to be really proud of yourself in the future.
right now life is really weird. you’re going through a lot of life changes. your friends are changing which is sad but will work out for the best. who knows, it may just be a little hump in the road. you changed your major from apparel to public relations and you’re really sad about it because you put in so much hard work. but ultimately you know that where you excel in life is in your writing and your words and speaking to people. so you changed your major and you’re going to be happy about it and you’re going to be your own boss one day. you just made the decision to rid a person from your life that’s been there for a year and some change, which sucks but it’s a part of growing up. just because someone is comfortable doesn’t mean that they’re meant to stay forever, you live and you learn and you take what you learned from that person and you grow from it. you will grow so much, i pinky promise you.
they say college is suppose to be the best four years of your life. so far college has been the best and the worst years of my life. its been filled with nights of crying because of some mean girl that won’t matter in the future and its been full of moments where i cry because i am so damn thankful for the life that has been given to me.
stop comparing yourself to others and stop trying to let others tell you what to do. you are your own person and you know that once again, you will never be good enough for the wrong person.
not everyone thinks the same way as you. i think that is something really important to tell yourself considering you really do think differently than most people. you love harder than anyone ever. where you’re currently at in life, people have told you that you love really hard and even more people are going to tell you that as you keep growing. don’t let it bother you if people call you weird because you write a lot of cards to people you care about and bake cakes for people you love. you have a really big heart, don’t be scared to chase what makes it skip a beat.
you’re going to be so in love with yourself and with your future and i cannot wait to see where you’re at when you read this in however long. i guess my last words of advice for yourself are to just be yourself and don’t let anyone tell you that you aren’t awesome. don’t let some stupid boy tell you that you aren’t enough because you are enough and you are someone that i’m so proud of. i think your younger self would be really proud of who you are now and who you’re going to be.